An excerpt from Lucy’s full article, which originally appeared in Diva Magazine
“One Friday in January this year, I found myself at a beautiful country house in Seaford, checking into the intensive self-development course, the Hoffman Process, with another 23 nervous strangers.
It seemed we all had different reasons for coming – some were facing a crossroads in life and couldn’t decide which way to go, others were just fed up with feeling unhappy and unfulfilled, some had issues around relationships, intimacy, self-esteem… For me it was a combination of identity issues, self-hatred, an ongoing and sporadic battle with addiction, and a deep and painful melancholy that I had felt for as long as I could remember…
There were moments when I felt overwhelmed, embarrassed, or just wondered what the hellI was doing supposedly learning to comfort my inner child… but, thanks to the strength of the group energy, I grew willing to divulge, experience and trust the experience. Plus, I quickly began to realize how my negative feelings and thoughts towards myself had injured me in the past, and just how much self-hatred I had been carrying around for too long.
Now months have passed since my Process experience and, while the initial euphoria has worn off, I still feel lighter and unshackled. I am learning how to love and care for myself, to forgive myself for past mistakes and instead live in the present. But most of all, I have begun to truly let go of my parents’ negative patterns (a change which was set in motion by the Process but which continues on a subtle level, every day), and those they inherited from their own parents.
I have choices. I am no longer a victim. And with that comes true freedom…”